Friday, July 29, 2005

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

My thought pond is a lil shallow

Hi, not much happening these days. I have a job interview tomorrow and I'll drop off an application at another job offered in the paper. As for the home life, all is well. Callie an I have decided on who is going to build our pool. Hopefully we'll be swimming in a couple of months. All the comments between callie an dani on my last entry makes me hope we break that pool in GOOD!!! :D
Other than that, I'm getting ready for hunting season. Been shooting my bow more an trying to get my optimism up. Maybe this year will be the one that I get a buck. Using a bow an arrow is hard enough without. But it's even harder with the traditional bows. I guess that's why I keep trying. The thrill of the chase is exciting even if I come home emty-handed.
Anyway, I think I'll leave this as is. I just have anything to get off my chest right now. Maybe later. Right now I think I'll go get on Callie's chest. :D

Monday, July 25, 2005

I'm Back, Satan says hi.

Wow, what a week that was! I haven't felt like that in years. Finally shook off the bad vibes with a good dose of family fun. Took callie and the girls to a nearby lake we like and went camping. It was a Blast! We're heading back this coming weekend. Seems like the best talisman for happiness is my family. Sorry for the long dry spell between posts and then the Thalsa Doom speech. Life has it's bumps in the road.
So, how have all of you folks been?

Thursday, July 21, 2005

I'm with ya guys





Your Inner European is Irish!









Sprited and boisterous!

You drink everyone under the table.


got a banana?


Which monkey are you?
Another pointless diversion from Bijouriel

Just when I think I'm out, they pull me back in.

It seems the dark side wants me back. No matter how hard I try to be good I'm pushed to the point where I'm ready an willing to let the evil out an revert to the days where the best solution was a bullet or a sharp knife in the the right person to make me feel better. I wan so much to just be happy an come home in a good mood. But there are those that are determined to test my metal. Trust me, it's sharp and swift and I'm almost ready to show them that I am more than willing and able to use it. At dinner tonight I was reminded why I try to control myself. Callie and my two girls were happy an smiling at me. That's all the reminder I needed. Tomorrow I will focus and keep looking for a way out that doesn't include bloodshed. But tonight I will hold my children and let them calm my soul once again. They are, after all my reason to be better than I am.

Monday, July 11, 2005

Life as it should be.

Well, it's Monday and aside from having to work in purgatory, all is well. The weekend was once again nice and easy. (a little fuzzy about Friday night.) Best part of a 5th of Jack went down good.
Saturday was relaxing watching movies with the family. The only thing missing there was chocolate. Sunday was another easy day what with a picnic with new friends and letting the kids run amok. Guess I should be ready for the work week but honestly, I wanna go camping with family and a close friend or two and leave the world behind. Decisions, Decisions.

Friday, July 08, 2005

time for a new one

Hi, well the week is over and I've had a few VERY strong jack and cokes. My latest attemp at finding a new job failed, but I have more leads. My job situation is tense to say the least. I was chatting with the petroleum leadman and let all know that were in earshot that if that crewman on my team so much as farts I'll kick his ass and if the foreman intervienses I'll knock the shit outta him too! Needless to say both were ten feet away. Neither said a word or even looked in my direction. My personal opinion is "they don't have the balls to back their shit up"! Sorry about how I feel about this but I'm used to being around people that believe that if they're right they stand up for it. Obviously those two don't think that way. Am I being an ass about this??
On the lighter side. We're going to have contractors coming next week to give us qoutes on our pool. We're very excited and can't wait to have a party. It's time to live for us an not for the job.
But enough of the drunk babbling. I hope everyone enjoys their weekend. Its time for another drink. <)

Who ME??????????





You Are a Warrior Soul





You're a strong person and sometimes seen as intimidating.
You don't give up. You're committed and brave.
Truly adventuresome, you are not afraid of going to battle.
Extremely protective of loved ones, you root for the underdog.

You are picky about details and rigorous in your methods.
You also value honesty and fairness a great deal.
You can be outspoken, intimidating, headstrong, and demanding.
You're a hardliner who demands the best from themselves and others.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul


Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Who wouldda thought?

Part Romantic Kisser


For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

Part Expert Kisser


You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Boss fucked me over.

This has been pissing me off for a few days, and I thought I'd rant.

I got into work on Thursday. I'm the Leadman. I told them when I took the job, that I would have authority to write up and dismiss employees. They agreed.

One of the workers needed to be informed of a leak on a truck he had built. I told him. First - let me explain to everyone that there is a bit of a "language barrier" with this particular employee. At least, it's one that he likes to exploit whenever something goes wrong with one of his trucks.

I tell him there's a leak.

"NOT MY PROBLEM," was his response. "YOU FIX."

"You built it, you have to fix your own mistakes."

He gave me his best 'fuck you' look, and turned and walked away.

I told the foreman, and let him know what was happening. I have known the foreman for 16 years. He was the best man at my wedding. We have always had an excellent working relationship. I told him I wanted to give the employee a verbal warning about his attitude, and he agreed.

I calmed down first (as per the foreman's instructions), and when I tried to explain that his attitude was the reason he was being written up, he continued to act as if it was his work. He told me, "I do good work. You always look for problems. You leave me alone." I informed him that I was his boss, and if he understood that.

His response: "You don't talk to me. You understand THAT?" Then he walked away AGAIN.

I was furious. His verbal warning had now progressed into a written warning. I walked into the shop foreman's office, and the foreman followed me. ALL THREE OF US (the shop foreman, my foreman, and myself) agreed to write the employee up. Which I did.

After lunch, after waiting yet again to calm down (again per my foreman's instructions), I called the employee aside (along with the foreman) and let him know that the problem was not with his work - it was his attitude. Again, the employee kept trying to blame the problem on faulty materials, insisting it wasn't his problem. The foreman told the employee that he was a "good worker, and did great work". The foreman then turned to me, expecting me to back him up. I tried to inform the employee that it was his attitude that was causing a problem. The employee said that I was always nitpicking, trying to find problems with his work.

The foreman said, "That's enough," and was willing to let the employee slide. I turned to the foreman to hand him the write up on the employee, and he said "No, don't worry about it." He just made it clear to the employee that he can do whatever the fuck he wants, and I have no authority to stop him.

I grabbed my stuff, and stormed out, to the sounds of "Don't be like that," from my foreman.

Come Tuesday, we are getting a translator in to resolve the problems with this employee (the foreman from the other division has also let it be known that he's had problems with this guy).

I don't know if I'm more angry with the situation with the employee, or with my foreman's betrayal. The Christmas before last, when the new secretary asked the foreman who his backup was, he, his wife, and my wife all pointed to me. They all know that I'm the only one who knows enough about this business to make the right decisions. Having him refuse to back me up feels like he stabbed me in the back.